So letter confirmed i yam PERMANENT! : ) this makes me very happy cos i've never had a perm job before, almost a oouple of times but job cuts/ getting fired etc meant i didn't, and it's so NICE to have the security of knowing i'm going to be able to afford rent and can plan things like holidays without having to live on tescos on brand pot noodles for a month!

: ) also things are going amazingly with Darren! It's really nice to have someone who's just copletely honest and likes that i am... He's smashing : )

Generally stuff is good and i'm feeling more confident in life and the chance that it might turn out OK and i do have the ability to be a competent normal adult!

yay!!

I want to say little but what i have to say is significant:

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! I wish you all every happiness on this day of yummy food and presents

kisses xx

So, to stop me being thrown out of flat i need to learn cheap, filling food recipes that can be taken into work for lunch ASAP!

I hate soggy sandwiches so any ideaS? I KNOW some of you are awesome chef-types (certainly not lookgin desperately in awe in the direction of caz) so any advice'd be masisvely appreciated! If low fat or something that also appreciated..

Pleasey? :) gemsy loves you xxx

cos i'm being a miserable sod!

1.I'm going to BELFAST in 2 weeks! And always wanted to go to Ireland
2.I currently have a lovely man who’s very sweet
3.I’m not, to my knowledge, dying of anything lame
4.I’m fun and yaysome 
5.I have loads of lovely friends
6.Next door have a puppy who ate sick out of our drain the other day an it hasn’t died yet 
7.I’m applying for jobs and sooner or later I’ll HAVE to get one, even by mistake
8.It’s all sunny and pretty and will be ALLLL weekend!
9.My mum’s paying for laser eye surgery so then I’ll have MORE money cos what I’ll be paying her back a month’ll prob be less than for contact lenses
10.I have clean duck pants for tomorrow! \o/

So yeah, split up with the Doctor that thursday. Sadly turns out he's not the guy I thought he was. Again it's a case of "you don't know someone til you split up with them"... Makes me glad it ended soon enough for me not to be emotionally involved. Don't regret though! It takes time to get to know someone and I did definitely have fun for the 3 months it was happy! And it reminded me that 1. I'm awesome and 2. Life is much more fun not spent bombing it to the pub every day.

So yeah, life's fucking good! No drinking isn't going badly though I did almost cave and grab a sip of wine tonight - it looked sooo nice! - but resisted and now only 12 days left (ish) so hurrah!

Missing all the numpties!! hoepfully will amke it up to see yas sooon! xxx

Has sads. :( Boosometide.

Ahh.. Time away! Bliss!

I haven't listened to anyone's problems or doine anythign apart from what I damned well please and I feel much better!

Also, as I so oft find, staying off the booze for a bit has vastly improved my mood. As has being put forwards for a number of jobs.

Still a bit down but not actually feeling awful anymore.

*phewph*

SOOO who's coming for christmas funtimes on 19th December?! Plan: running round London dressed in xmas fancy dress (non complusory although you're boring if u don't!) drinking and generally being merry! :)

hope everyone's good; gemsy's door is now open again for conversation etc! : ) xxxxx

01 Your Name:
02 Age:
03 Gender:
04 Favourite Film:
05 Favourite Song or Album:
06 Favourite Band/Artist:
07 Dirty or Clean:
08 Tattoos and/or Piercings:
09 Do we know each other outside of LJ?:
10 What's your philosophy on life?:
11 Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?:
12 Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?:
13 What is your favourite memory of us?:
14 What is your favourite guilty pleasure?:
15 Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16 You can have three wishes (for yourself):
17 Can we get together and make a cake?:
18 Which country is your spiritual home?:
19 What is your big weakness?:
20 Do you think I'm a good person?:
21 What was your best/favourite subject at school?:
22 Describe your accent:
23 If you could change anything about me, would you?:
24 What do you wear to sleep?:
25 Trousers or skirts?:
26 Cigarettes or alcohol?:
27 If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?:
28 Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?:

I'm being very patient but you're still messing around and not living up to what you should!!

did you geta new boyfriend or somethign? COs I can understand neglecting your work if so but really! time to get back on the bandwagon:

- A certain person deserves to have won the lotery by now- please get on the case. I admit he doens't even play the lottery but he could find a winning ticket someone dropped?

- A certain ME deserves a good job please!

- a certain someone else needs to learn how unacceptible their behaviour is before it's too late and they lose eveyrthing.. I do not believe they deserve to lose everything due to their ignorance of how awful they are so they ned to work it out themselves..

- donkeys need to rule the world.

Fank you,

love gemsy xxx